Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood. ~Marie Curie
Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it. ~Bill Cosby
To fear is one thing. To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is another. ~Katherine Paterson, Jacob Have I Loved
To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom. ~Bertrand Russell
lack of confidence? check.
suddenly a first-time victim of fainting spells and panic attacks? check.
In 5th grade, a 6th grader (who’s name I definitely remember and is NOT a Facebook friend!) told me in gym class that I run funny. At lunch she told me I chewed funny.
I’m fairly certain this was the closest I ever had to being bullied, which is by no means complaint-worthy at all, but it has clearly and pathetically stuck with me.
I have a fear of gyms and have never (since once in High School) signed up for any type of exercise class. As I begin to notice aging and post-breakup changes in my body, I’ve decided it’s really time to get over my childhood self-esteem issues and actually take care of myself.
I haven’t worked out in 3 years. The closest thing I’ve had to exercise was 1 Level 1 video session of “The Biggest Loser Yoga” 4 months ago. I usually eat fairly healthy but certainly have my more-than-fair share of Wisconsin foods: beer, cheese, and fried anything.
So I signed up for a Tuesday night 7 week Yoga class downtown.
(If you remember from my “Zero Score and 7 years ago…” blog, this is #3 on the Bucket List (aka “Fulfilling My Dreams”/”Finally Feeling Alive”/”Get Out of Rock Bottom” List))
It starts tomorrow.
I am a ball of panic attacking nerves. I want to throw up. I’ll probably just end up shaking and hyperventilating.
But it’s good to get out of one’s comfort zone. It increases metabolism. Or something.
And of course I have an “Up and At ‘Em – Motivate Me” playlist.
- Tap the Phone –> Francis and the Lights
- Wonder –> Dan Black
- Tonight is the Night –> Outasight
- Dynamite –> Taio Cruz
- La Belle et la Bete –> Big Soul
- E-Pro –> Beck
- Feel So Close –> Calvin Harris
- You Make Me Feel –> Cobra Starship
- Blurred Lines –> Robin Thicke
- Sail –> AWOLNATION
- Undercover Martyn –> Two Door Cinema Club
- My Body –> Young the Giant
- Walking On A Dream –> Empire of the Sun
- Safe and Sound –> Capital Cities
- Carried Away –> Passion Pit
- Burn it All Down –> VHS or Beta
- Fall Down –> will.i.am
- Anything Could Happen –> Ellie Goulding
- Embers –> Just Jack
- Terminally Chill –> Neon Indian
And Get Up and Get Motivated!
lose your inhibitions.