The first and greatest victory is to conquer yourself; to be conquered by yourself is of all things most shameful and vile. ~Plato
Look at everything as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time. ~Betty Smith, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn
I thought growing up was something that happened automatically as you got older. But it turns out it’s something you have to choose to do. ~From the television show Scrubs
The ball of panicking nerves that I was is no more. At least not for my yoga class.
It was a great first class – quite the workout, yet very relaxing. Yes, I was sore the next day…right now my body is quite wimpy…but my goodness was I relieved of much of my stress! My “classmates” and instructor are wonderful, and I am definitely quite proud of myself….which is something quite rare for me to say.
The days of someone glaring at me from behind braces and a peanut butter sandwich saying I look funny are over! Granted, today I still tripped twice and spilled coffee on my shirt….but thats just an everyday occurrence. Still awkward, but at least I have confidence in my awkwardness.
6 more classes to go and I can officially cross #3 off of my list.
I feel so rejuvenated. So empowered. So mighty!
So I decided to start working on another bucket list item.
#9. Return to and finish college.
I spent the afternoon yesterday getting the first steps all completed. I filled out applications for both UW-LaCrosse and Viterbo University, and all the other requirements such as FAFSA and transcript requests. I feel productive and accomplished! Which is another set of feelings I rarely have.
Yet now, the next steps lie in the hands of other people – admissions counselors.
For the next few weeks I have to sit back and play the waiting game.
This is my least favorite game.
I hate having not having full control of a situation.
If I force myself to look at the bright side, I should be a pro at patience by the time the news comes.
Patience is very becoming. Or something.
Until then, myself and my new-found confidence will be jamming out to a “new-age-new-view-it’s-not-so-bad-and-easier-than-I-thought-why-have-I-been-hiding-under-a-rock-hey-cute-guy-would-you-like-to-go-get-coffee” playlist –>
- Heartbeat – Kopecky Family Band
- Awkward – San Cisco
- Applause – Lady Gaga
- From the Morning – Nick Drake
- There is a Light that Never Goes Out – The Smiths
- Piazza, New York Catcher – Belle & Sebastian
- I Love It – Icona Pop
- Home – Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros
- Mrs. Robinson – Simon and Garfunkel
- The Promise – When In Rome
- Can’t You See – The Marshall Tucker Band
- Against the Wind – Bob Seger
- Stay – Rihanna
- Cleopatra – Minature Tigers
- Good to Sea – Pinback
- Up – Rob Crow
- She Doesn’t Get It – The Format
- Books from Boxes – Maximo Park
- I Feel It All – Feist
- Caring Is Creepy – The Shins
- Major Tom – Shiny Toy Guns
feel free to jam out too!
…and ask that crush out for a coffee.
….and start your own “live without regrets” bucket list, and get to work!!!
in no particular order.